Happy birthday to me
Yup, I am 19 now. This changes absolutely nothing, but I guess it's something. It's funny how insignificant birthdays become as you get older, maybe it's because each year becomes a lesser percentage of your life overall.
Some people say I'm achieving unc status just because I am pushing 20. I find that hilarious because if I am that old then relatively speaking my parents are fossils. In reality, I'm still pretty young relative to an average human lifespan, which will probably be much bigger as I age with advances in medicine. I have heard our generation will live to 150 if current trends keep up. Not sure what I will do with those extra decades up my sleeve but I got time to figure that out.
Of course that is all assuming I die of a natural death, which I personally can't guarantee, some people find that unsettling for me to say but is it really that wrong though? There are so many things that could kill us at any given moment. Crazy drunk drivers, contagious diseases, getting shot at a Denny's, World War fucking 3 potentially, you know the drill.
I used to think about how I could die all the time due to my anxiety, for example one time I was simply on the sidewalk and suddenly I am flashed with a vivid vision of me violently getting run over by a crazy driver, it was honestly very scary and I am so glad my current anxiety medication has obliterated that part of my brain. I'm honestly surprised I didn't get help earlier, maybe I thought I would just be able to thug it out or something, which of course I was wrong about.
Off the death and anxiety rant, I wonder how our future is going to be. I hope someday inventors of new technologies won't have to be scrutinized by giant companies that can afford hit men to kill them if they ever threaten their current business model. It's ironic the capitalist system that apparently promotes innovation also gives the power to discourage it too. I don't see a good future of technological revolution anytime soon if this keeps up. Especially seeing how scientific research is being cut of their funding due to the government seeing it as unnecessary spending, since when was the government a fucking business?
Political rant aside, I look forward to what my life holds despite what is going on around me. I am considering getting into fursuit making in the future (big surprise, I'm a furry) and various other hobbies, computers are fun and all but sometimes I would like something else I could occupy myself with if I am not in the mood for them. I would get into hardware modding and other electronics but it really wouldn't be safe to have a soldering gun in my room that's on the 3rd floor of my house. Once I get my own place I will absolutely look into it again.
Don't really have much else to say now, I'm writing this late at night two days prior and scheduling it on my birthday, as I will probably not have enough time on the day of my birthday to write anything. I know this is a pretty short post, but writing is not what I am good in at all. It's either this or some ChatGPT slop, which I am not going to do because I would like to keep my intellect, thank you very much.
