Oh, I forgot to write something

Hello, it's been a minute huh? What do you mean the last post was literally in May? Well, let's get to the drill. Back in May I went through yet another surgical procedure that was similar to the one I had the year prior due to a reoccurrence. I will refrain from the details of this surgery to both save the squeamish and save myself from writing it all. Anyways, it left me with quite some downtime that I am still facing even today from healing. It wasn't as bad as the first time because I am now familiar what its like to recover from an intense surgery, being fed on narcotics and such, but that doesn't help with the factor of isolation. (P.S. NEVER WATCH TERRIBLE MOVIES ON OXYCONTIN!)

It will approximately take 8 months to be fully healed and I have only gone through 3 months, so I have to keep my body under heavy maintenance to ensure I won't have to do this again. In the meantime I have been trying my best to work on both helping myself and working on projects, but it has been admittedly sluggish. Might be the fact my body is working overtime with the healing process, slowing me down mentally? I'm not a doctor so I can't say for sure, but that would make sense. I am aware of the link between mental and physical health. I did hit the gym for some time and I'm sure that helped to a degree but I stopped not because I was weak but because it got boring, too much grind, bad game design 0/10. In all seriousness, I do plan on getting back into some sort of fitness routine but it will have to be after I'm fully healed as to not stress out my body and potentially harm any new healing progress.

In other words I am officially now an adult. Many people say this but its crazy how quick that was. It feels like it was yesterday when I was joking about the COVID-19 pandemic with friends in middle school. Let alone when people thought the world was going to end in 2017 because some planes black box said so, lol. Getting back on track with me being 18. It doesn't feel like much has changed and I'm not wrong for thinking that cause I'm only a year older than I was a year ago.

"17 is such a weird age [...] you're not 18 yet but you're older than 16 [...] it's like a learning stage [...]" -Tupac Shakur, 1988

To celebrate my 18th birthday I created a little machinima for it. I originally had a plan for a much more complex animation, but I didn't have enough time to meet the deadline of my birthday. I still think what I finished was good enough, and on time too!

I'm sure this post sounds very directionless and that is because it is. Sometimes that is ok however, it can be fun to just dump whatever you're thinking about with pen and ink. I hope once I get into a better habit of doing this I will be able to speak more coherently without rambling too much. I hope everyone else has a great day, I want you to know that for every bad thing you hear happening in this world theres twice the good at the same time. It is hard to believe but it's one of those facts you have to witness for yourself. Take care of yourself and don't get overwhelmed, our minds weren't designed with this level of constant reporting in mind.

I promise this time I will have something cool to share fairly soon, seriously. All this secrecy may hopefully pay off, even if it isn't much. At least it isn't as painful as publicly disappointing all who are watching with a false promise, I guess.